This morning a message only re-assured my worst of intuitions. I just came out of a relationship where i was cheated and unconsciously used as a 'prozac'.Yesterday i was used into doing something i didn't want to.Today my fears are confirmed when i can't trust my own god brother.
Afiq went into a fit and started throwing magazines,cd covers and cds towards that cupboard of his.He just felt so betrayed by everyone.He could not trust anyone any more.It's just so hard for him these days.seeing hopes rise and fall.He is feeling really drained or both emotional and physical energy. Signing out WANN
hey there, afiq here.feeling greatly emo nowi dont liike it.I'm really dwelling in the sheer deepness of emo.Looking it up on the net,leaving my hair to express the emo-ness, listening to depressing songs.I had my first puff yesterday.It was soo nice.Provided such a temporary solace.
i will be writing a lot of poems to drown my sorrows so keep yourself updated. till then
Sunday, December 16, 2007
「 dancing away 10:12 PM 」
hEY there. Afiq here i have just finished speaking with P and i feel there was a lesson learned for the both of us.
Wan taking over You know what,scratch that. P just did something that made me take it all back. He should of learned by now that communication is essential.But why? Why cant we just talk about it? Why cant he just tell me and not go behind my back? I don't know whats gonna happen.Afiq loves P a lot and thats all i know i just hope P doesn't push it too much.
9.02 pm
hey guys, wan here.I've managed to push Afiq into the deep depths of this body.The situation has been to heavy for him.It's too heavy for his soul to carry at least.He is getting head aches,feels drained of energy and his senses are really fragile now.Afiq's emo-ness is rather difficult to tame. I've gotta play this Gamelan track to rather "tone it down". ---------------- Now playing: Gamelan Son of Lion - Halloween ---------------
I'm fishing for chocolates!!! I need it badly man.Cause i know once Afiq gets control of this body he wont take a bite of any."Bad for my throat" urgh.Afiq's emo-ness is coming cause i am getting a head ache because of the track. I won't let Afiq take full drive of the body.Don't worry I'm not that dumb.haha lol.I'll play a *EMO and HAPPY* safe song.
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
「 dancing away 8:48 PM 」
hey guys its already the evening of yet another boring day. tomorrow i'm planning to go over to P places int he morning but i dunno if i could make it since i'm meeting Kamarov&Suarez at noon-ish.
i really want a job. the three places i went didn't have vacancies or were not hiring. who knows a place where it is a local brand/product/label that is just emerging and starting its own boutique?i want to help/BE PAID TO HELP *preferably*.to me,i dont really care much bout the cash.i just want to be able to be in the process and get the experience.i want to be there when the person gets the label of SINGAPORE'S FASHION GURUs and i want him/her to know that through his/her challenges they wont be alone.i just want to be exposed to this part of the industry. smack me in the face and call me JUSTIN SUAREZ. *NO ARGUMENT I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS MY WHOLE LIFE.*
*be who you are wear what you want*
Monday, December 3, 2007
「 dancing away 7:25 PM 」
hey guys i just came back from starbucks and the library.i loved what i accomplished today; a nice sketch and a monogram.a monogram which has to be edited because it could possibly look like THE 'ALY AND AJ' SISTER'S .
i got something from SS. i love it there.its kinda cute.i would go there again.
oh and for those people who always find it hard to find something that looks good on you,i know how you feel,truly.i mean there is easy fit and loose fit. But where are the SQUEEZY FIT? I KNOW RIGHT!! gawd. hahah
P has been having bad days because of work and all.i guess i'll just give P space for now. less talking to me and more rest for P. that will be the aim.
i'm trying my best to strengthen my 'baritone' and 'bass'. i think my voice is too high for a guy at 16.i'm also trying to expand my vocal range so wish me luck.
ANIMOLOGY: What Animal Are You?
Your Result: Ocre and Gray Dolphin
Sea! You're a very hearty person being a good friend. You attract many friends because of your lovely personality, but you're sometimes pretty weird. Your soul mate is the Bronze Goat. You hate the Peach Pig.
HEY GUYS *yaye updating* i have always noticed how my posts usually are way too personal.emo,feeling-feeling, JIWANG and just overall sad.i'm laughing at myself now as i'm typing this *just imagine O0* . i truly have nothing much to be sad about.well,there are you typical problems but i've got more things to be happy about than sad.i guess drowning myself in sadness and pity just provided me temporary solace. well thats not me.i'm a person with double,triple,quadriple personalities.KAMAROV & SUAREZ know me best:)).they know i could change my emotions form one form to another in the split of a split second *a quarter? durh*. ahaha well just a brief summary of today's post,short paragraphs of recent events and MAJOR and i mean MAJOR photo uploads wohoo so yeah.
me and BAZ *not lurhman* my bro that is are getting kinda cloose.thats cool for me :)).i'm so proud of him.he has a nice voice.
me and H when out previously.had loads of fun.when job hunting ;). oh and yeah just thanks basically for accompanying me to what we actually had planned.which was to stomp over to JEAN PIERRE DISGNA and scream and demand for an interview.but we knew we wouldn't do that.so yeah looked around and i'm trying soo hard to contact AMNESTY PTE LTD. but they are always engage like at 1200,1430 and 1600. i tried to call them at 2330 just incase the workers were night people .haha lol.
i saw this pair of white ck jeans online that i soo badly want .its 10 or 20 bucks ... should i get it ... i want it.. But i'm actually planning to buy a hair iron.so i have to push that aside i guess
today was TGIO party for those who took part in NANO. i chose not to attend.i know KAMAROV said whether you finished or not but i still felt like i was not worthy ( wordy) *get it ? haha ..nvm*so yeah hope SUAREZ AND KAMAROV enjoyed it.
I found this song on youtube which is DA BOMB.haha. the minute i heard it,i started dancing. i was like *BAM BAM BAM * all over my room floor.
