Sunday, November 25, 2007
heyy heyy
ok i wont update bout prom much cause the prep and after party was better.
family politics live amongst us always.why do i feel that i have to be looking out for my other cousins?
cousin a) skipping school to go out with his stead. to an extend of getting letters from the polytechnic.
cousin b) going out with a 'mat-emo' who is 3 years older than her.comes home late at night and you know how guys can be.
i know i'm only 16 and there is only so much that i can do.
"MUM!!!!!!!!"
Me and H are slowly cracking down on the family politics.we know who are guilty and when it started roughly.but not why. it still remains a mystery to us why it exactly happened and who is the exact victim.we have reason to believe my mum is being pulled into this through association. Financial standing are one of the reasons.
well gonna stop blogging for now.will update on the our drama :)
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
hey guys
TODAY,my day was filled with chores.i feel kinda good about it since i've not been doing my own housework since forever.haha so its was a cool day.
woke up watching youtube and i remembered bout KEN RENALDI,an old school mate.he was a great,fun guy to be friends with. i dont know where is he or what he is doing now but all the best dude.
ok was watching a video of my kamarov and suarez at coffee bean.i sooo miss them a lot ...
SHOUT OUT :: I HAVE BEEN THROUGH A LOT LATELY and I WANT TO APOLOGIZE TO KAMAROV AND SUAREZ IF I HAVE EVER VENTED MY ANGER ON THEM IN ANYWAY.I'M REALLY SORRY AND HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND.I TOO WANT TO THANK THEM FOR HELPING THROUGHOUT AND GIVING ME MY SPACE WHERE NEEDED.I LOVE YOU GUYS LOTS.miss you guys as well..*wil upload the video* *SUAREZ!!! WHERE IS THE MONTAGE?!?!?!?!?*
it's already been 3 days with P.P is great.during the dating period,i would message P and call P so randomly whenever i was bored.hmm should i tell ya'll how i got hooked on P?must ask P first whether i can say or not heheh :) . oh yah.. erm Yang.. 9.09 :))
I've changed a bit if some of you ever noticed.just for your info,i went through an emotional detox period recently and my feelings and heart were numb.i forgot how every emotion felt.it was like i was reborn. and this is no joke.i knew what emotions were and how they should feel,just that i didn't remember how it did feel.i started associating emotions and events like
eg. eating=happy
haha ok guys i guess i'd be going love ya'll lots
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Now playing: Jennifer Lopez - Love Don't Cost A Thing
via FoxyTunes
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
hey guys
went for nyaita's rehearsal to help her. overall was great. really fun.i reminiscence of the time i used to be in ava crew in primary school.sat in the projection room above the auditorium.
i controlled the music and volumes.was fun while it lasted.
i'm seeing someone right now.. oh and just remember,if you look for love,you will never find it .
i just came back from lunch and am now in distress mood.word on the street is,Daniel is wearing white and i cannot afford to be seen wearing the same colour.i just thought of the most amazing idea ever.wont say now.i love to work under pressure.it makes me do the things i'm doing much more better.
the minute i heard Daniel was wearing white,i just had to call aiman.MY cousin... love ya man...he is my life saver.Can i call Daniel,Emmet,it sounds more fitting for him.haha ouchh. *-) ok i'm being a bitch. haha.err yeah so i've got my layout done ... willbe bringing both sets there for options.
my thursday wil be filled with errands i have to run.
*collect the skinnies form aiman
*sent nyaita's sandals
*meet fatin for the korean song
*finalize with suarez and kamarov
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Now playing: Holly Cole Trio - Victoria's Secret
via FoxyTunes
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
hey guys
its been difficult for me lately
confused and all
hais...i met luqe yesterday...
things are happening we are going out sometime.
i have this fear that we are going to ya know
patch up...
it's not that it's bad or anything .. i'm just not ready.
jai wanted to come over. he was like hinting so badly.
i'm afraid he'll make a move as well now that he knows i'm single.
relationships been really difficult for me.
i usually move on easily but for the pass two its been...
difficult.but its ok i'm back in the game...
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Now playing: Fergie - Clumsy
via FoxyTunes
Sunday, November 11, 2007
hey guys...
feeling crushed right now...
it doesn't work
the speech-to-words software doesn't work...
why!? why?!
my only hope for a 50 000 word count by end of november is down SINGAPORE'S BIGGEST LONGKANG then to NEWATER
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hey guys,
i'm back.i'm sorry I have not been updating lately but now you can see me update maybe even three times a day. school's out for two months :)
i'm going through net-mails right now @ friendster,myspace and hotmail.who uses facebook?
replied to some.deleted the rest. Unwanted-people mail is much more irritating than spam.
urggh i can't do NANO anymore!!!.I want to but can i not reach the 50 000 word count.I am miserably missing out and need a major catching up to do.20 more days and a hell lot of words to write.i'll need those speech-to-words softwares which heheh i'm installing right this moment.
thanks Kamarov.
Can't wait to "write". starting now.
oh and for the record...
i DO NOT LOOK LIKE BRYAN BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, November 3, 2007
whats wrong with me
i read people wrongly
my intuition is not that strong any more
i believe and trust people too easily
gawd help
why do people manipulate me soo bad
to this day i am stil depressed
my appetite is not coming back
never in my 16 years of living
did i ever see myself in such a state
i may be able to forgive you
but forget this moment i can't
my feelings for you may have changed
but i still care for ya
I've never in my life
missed a person
till i'm near insanity
what more i fi have to contain it
I'm sooo in love with you its dangerous
it has affected me badly.
to this day i cry and tear myself to sleep
thinking of you .....
its not your fault
bear that in mind
its just me....
that was hurting
Thursday, November 1, 2007
guys
help me
i'm depressed
when i used to be depressed
i usually ate a lot
but now i don't even eat
reason is because I've got no mood.
you can't do this to me
i know you are busy
but can't you leave a simple message
my mind is going crazy ya know
i can't revise properly.
getting migraines and headaches
gawd now I'm not eating I'll be
a full fledged anorexic soon.
it's not ya fault but i miss you too much.
too much its making me rethink....
i love sensory overload
you get more time with your brain
than you usually do.
SALVAGE ME FROM ANOREXIA
